LIVING !!

 

life-mess

It seems like I blinked and this year is already halfway over.  I suppose that’s a good sign, though, because when things aren’t going well time seems to drag on endlessly.  I’ve been keeping busy with university and work and living life in general.  I’m just a few classes away from getting my degree, which will be so great to have done.  I’m happy that i have joined a dance class recently which is a thing I’ve never done in my entire life, so took a challenge of learning it.

life has somewhat become a mess because confusions are all over the head, not able to figure about the future plans and what to do next. seeing people very clear with their thoughts and goals disturbs me even more. the people who were very close also left but somehow people leaving teaches a lesson to not to repeat those mistakes.

That is a really beautiful sentiment that has popped into my mind more than once since then.  When I think of all the time I spend thinking about the past or worrying about the future, it makes me stop and consider how much effort I’m giving to the now.  How often am I completely present in the moment?  Sadly, not very often.  The amount of time I spend thinking about things that have already happened or things that I need to do is staggering.  It’s also mostly pointless.

So I’ve started trying to notice more of the things that are great about right now.  When I’m in the car, I roll the windows down to feel the wind in my hair and turn the music up.  I think about the words and the listen to the rhythm and instruments.  At work it’s harder, but I’m trying to focus on one thing at a time.

Other than that, there’s not a lot to report.  Most days I’m so ridiculously happy it’s sickening.  When I’m not, it’s because I’ve gotten lost in my head.  All in all, life is fantastic.  I can’t think of a time when I’ve felt more content and fulfilled and loved.